The two values that are most important to me are integrity and growth. Integrity to me is remaining true to my inner compass and to my word to others. I have always had a very strong conscious and I instinctively know what the "right" thing to do that is aligned to my values most of the time. Every time I have gone against my conscious the amount of guilt I have felt afterwards has not been worth it. Growth is also important to me because I truly love learning new things each day and improving. I feel that growth makes my life interesting and worthwhile.
I cannot think of a major instance where my value of integrity showed up, but I can think of a bunch of small ones. For example the other day I was venting to my friends one lunch about my boyfriend having too many T-shirts (he is a member of a subscription box club). A few of them suggested throwing some away without him knowing since he probably would not notice anyways. I knew I could not do it because it would 1.) involve me doing something to his property without his permission and 2.) I would have to lie to him. Violating his rights to his property is against what I believe in and lying on top of that too him would make it worse.
One thing I do that is outside of my value of integrity is that sometimes I lie by omission. I will do something that I know someone would not appreciate but I just don't ever tell them. I justify it by knowing that I would tell them if they asked, but putting myself in that situation in the first place is against my core value of integrity. I have been working on this more this year. I think this is especially hard for me because I HATE displeasing people.
One instance of my value for growth showing up is when I decided to minor in German in college. I knew it would be difficult because I have some issues with spelling and pronunciation. I also knew going into it that it would be hard for me. I graduated from UCLA in 2010 with an English major and a German Minor with a 3.5 GPA. I can attest that I would have had a much higher GPA without the German. In fact the only C in a class I have ever earned was in German 5. One of my friends during college took only classes he knew he would get an A in. He ended up getting into Harvard Law when he completed his undergrad and this was partially due to his very high GPA. I always thought how boring that must of been to take only classes that are easy for you.
One thing that I do that is outside of my value of growth is give up really easily with all athletics. I just feel like I am bad at all sports. It does not help that when I was a kid I was the worst preforming player in several teams. To this day I still feel defeated before I even try at anything athletic.
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